Chapter 1472: Worried About Love
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Ah...
What did I do?!
I groaned, looking at the food I cooked for Alma while I heard her taking a bath.
She was so happy she was even humming some sort of song; she was really happy.
And I was as well, but I felt slightly bad too.
I feel like I kind of ended rushing things a bit there, we should’ve done things a bit slower.
Why am I like this?!
It makes me want to... strangle myself or something!
Perhaps beheading myself could appease my guilt.
Ugh, no...
I just have to apologize to her once she’s done in the bathroom, I shouldn’t have done the things I did so quickly.
I mean, we haven’t even done anything past kisses and... touching, but even then, I feel bad.
Alma is so pure and cute, and I feel like I ended taking advantage of that...
But I’m also very happy she likes me... And I didn’t want that opportunity to go away when I saw it.
But maybe I speeded up things a bit too much, I should’ve been gentler and... done things slower.
Alma, I’m so sorry!
"Uughh..."
As I placed the breakfast on the table, which were pancakes, tea, toasts with butter on top, some fresh fruit, a flan, and eggs, I sighed, taking a bite off the toast.
"Maria, I’m almost ready~! I’ll change clothes now..."
"A-Ah... Yeah, sure..."
As I heard her humming while changing clothes, I saw her finally walk out of her bathroom.
And...
"D-Do you like it? Hehe, we don’t have to wear uniform anymore so... U-Um, I tried something different. This is what I usually wear when I’m not in school."
She was wearing tight blue jeans, accentuating all of her beautiful curves and thick thighs, a white shirt, and a pink colored sweater with a hoodie.
That, combined with her black sneakers, her long pink hair tied into a long ponytail, and her cute smile, made me...
Well, fall for her even more!
She’s so cute even in such casual clothes!
It wasn’t anything crazy either, but she looks so different.
"You’re so cute!"
"E-Eh? I-Is that so? Heheh..."
She giggled while feeling embarrassed.
"S-So I don’t look weird?"
"Of course not! If anything you look... Um, well, you look great."
She quickly sat down at the table, looking at her breakfast.
"O-Oh wow, you really cooked a lot of stuff, Maria... I-it looks delicious..."
"Ah yes, I just went for something classic, you like pancakes right?"
"O-Of course! I love pancakes... Thank you...!"
As she smiled, I felt my heart skipping a beat.
Ah, she’s too cute for this world.
Alma started eating them happily, as I looked at my reflection on the tea.
Ugh, I hate that stupid face of mine.
Why are you so stupid and do things you regret?!
I better just apologize now, I don’t think I can move on with this guilt...
"A-Are they good?"
"Yesh!"
She smiled cutely while eating them, she finished the first pancake in seconds.
"Hmm... Maria? Is something wrong?"
"Uuh..."
"What’s wrong?"
She looked at me with a worried expression, extending her little hand at mine.
And touching my hand.
"I-Is something the matter? I can tell you look worried..."
"I’m sorry Alma..."
"E-Eh? Why?"
"I might have gone too far there... I feel like I ended... taking advantage of your kindness. I shouldn’t have rushed things... I... maybe I shouldn’t had gone too far either. I’m... I’m really sorry if I scared you... or if you felt forced, I really am very sorry..."
"..."
There, I just said it...
This world has helped me experience many new feelings and emotions, things I thought I had mostly forgotten too.
But above all else, I think it has helped me to become more honest with myself, and with others...
It also has made me look back into my own actions and reflect more than usual.
"W-What are you talking about, Maria...? I don’t get it... You weren’t forcing anything into me..."
After thinking for a few seconds, Alma responded.
"R-Really?"
"Y-Yeah... Come on now, you shouldn’t say such things... it makes me feel like you regret having kissed me... or said you liked me... y-you... you don’t like me then?"
She suddenly got all teary eyed.
Ah, shit...
"No, wait! I do! I... I love you."
I held her hands gently.
"I just felt bad... because I thought I forced you to do something, you were too surprised, and I ended revealing a bit too many things... Maybe I’m worrying too much?"
"You are! D-Dummy... You shouldn’t say such things!"
This was the first time I saw Alma this angry...
I might have really screwed things over even more.
"I thought you would’ve wanted to go slower...?"
"I-I never thought about it at all, and it just happened... A-And... I liked it."
"Even if it was too fast?"
"Yeah! I-I mean... we skipped the annoying stuff, right?"
"A-Alma..."
"Geez... I didn’t know you were like this sometimes, Maria... I guess we aren’t so different either..."
"I’m sorry..."
"Ah, it’s alright... I would’ve defended myself if you were even forcing yourself on me... I might have acted a bit... shy. But... um, I was very flustered! But that... T-That doesn’t mean I wasn’t enjoying it... S-Sorry if it was confusing? I liked it..."
"Alma..."
I quickly moved the chair to her side, as she gave me a big bear hug.
"Don’t regret what we did, ok? It would make me feel... really bad. T-That was my first kiss after all, Maria... Y-You stole it."
"It was?!"
"Yep... Ehehe... I-I want to go on dates with you of course... And everything else... Um, that couples do?"
"E-Everything else? You mean even...?"
"Aahh... m-maybe?"
Oh...
I didn’t expect Alma to be this mature.
I guess I was the one misjudging her because of her personality...
But she’s... indeed a grown-up girl, yes.
Ahh!
What’s this?
I suddenly feel really lightweighted...
I’m guessing this guilt I felt is now gone, huh?
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